In the days that led up to Easton's birth, I didn't know how to feel or react. My heart was tugged in different directions. I so baldly wanted to meet the little man who called my body home for 9 months, but I was anxious and weary of all the unknowns past delivery.
We were a scheduled c section for 10:00AM last Monday, but we were quickly delayed by an emergency c section; it was if we hadn't waited long enough, it was going to be just a little bit longer. Then, when they came to wheel me down the ominous hallway for c section prep, my body and mind were overwhelmed with emotions. Meeting Easton was something that we were never promised and my heart was overly cautious about what would lie ahead of us in the future-surgeries, echoes, unknown amount of time in the CVICU--it's a lot of take in for this simple minded girl.
With an operation room full of doctors, nurses, and the cardiac intensive unit team all into place, they finally brought Stephen in the room. Stephen has been and continues to be my earthly rock as we walk through the abyss of having a CHD baby (heart baby). He sat by my head and we talked about sports and podcasts and then in a blink of an eye, I heard the doctor say, "Oh Courtney, he has a cute butt!" and my heart started to swell a little more. Seconds later, we heard Easton cry for a quick second (we were told he may not cry because his condition was so unknown). Stephen wiped the tears away as they fell down my cheeks, a day that we couldn't have pictured since we'd received his diagnosis and prognosis. We were able to watch on screens as the cvicu team prepped him to be taken away for his assessment and that's when we had forgotten to ask how much he weighed. When the team spouted off a whopping 9lbs 1oz, we couldn't help but laugh. Heart babies don't typically grow into big babies but we were once again so thankful that our little man was nice and stout. Stephen left with the team to go be the baby as I was being closed shut and praying that my organs weren't rearranged:)
Throughout the rest of the day, I couldn't help but have a happy and full heart. My mind was still cautious, but we were so thankful to finally have met our greatest joy.Easton Bauer Sparks was born at 12:33PM and we couldn't be more proud to be his parents, even knowing that this path will be full of unforeseen obstacles, our hearts are still full of love for our sweet little man.
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